Byron Blue Rose – The loudest scream Lyrics

If I'm depressed I need to smile
But when I smile they're not impressed
So tell me, what you want me to become then
Tell me what to do to be the best
If I'm annoyed then I'm too cold
And if I cry I cry too much
God, shut your mouth mind about your own business, I don't think you can do better than this
What is your name sir
As I though man you want me to change
Yeah Maybe one day, when I'll be laughing inside of a coffin
Didn't break your heart, broke your ego
Didn't chase my dream, made it real
Stop bitching, do we have a deal
Gotta start moving, gotta go fast, I hope my life will be better than that
I wanna win, I wanna love, I wanna worry 'bout nothing at all
If you could understand me, would that be enough? What is the finish line I gotta cross
I'm not afraid, I'm addicted to pain, that is my price and I can't wait to pay
I needed somebody, but that somebody won't help me
Just got some weeks on my future but then my future is empty
At least you could choose your nightmares, so tell me spiders or death
My biggest fear is that I could have too much time left
Oh, but then you say I can't make it, I'm a competitive asshole,
I'm starting sharpen my blade yeah 'cause cause your envy comes natural
The more you try to destroy me the more I keep getting stronger
When I'll be done demonstrating then I'll be dead with a boner
My rage is awful, I'm pretty sure that is by far my worst emotion
When it gets darker can't even see where your facts are
How bizarre, turned the light on but I see how many facts? None
Don't have to ask for permission, this is my turn to be happy
Hope I really could, hope this weight would be less heavy
I'm looking for myself and man Imma find me
Swear I'll get rid of my baggage and once I do I'll shout the loudest scream
I'll shout the loudest scream
I'll shout the loudest scream
The loudest scream
I pulled the trigger
Hope you didn't shit your sheets, I'm not a quitter
I know I gotta fix my shit, I'm getting weaker
But it's hard to stay true when this world's wicked
But you know, I remember well when I used to care
When I believed anyone could have done it better than that
But that is the past, I'm even done with hating myself
Tonight I gave my life a reason, now what comes next